"My guide in the
Garden shared knowledge with me and instantly answered my questions for the
entire two-week period I was there. There were three richly colored moon bodies
or planets orbiting and revolving above us. I understood the passage of time in
the Garden realm by observing the movement of these three celestial bodies.
These orbs were vividly bright and appeared, as best I can describe them, to be
what we would call violet, although the violet here on Earth does not approach
the vibrancy of the violet in the Garden. By instinctively reading this
calendar of sorts by the movement of the orbs, an ability I found I already
possessed without any effort, I came to know that my visit to the Garden lasted
two weeks. I instinctively knew how time worked and passed in a nonlinear
fashion in the Garden, just as I know how it works (or at least how we perceive
it to work) linearly here on Earth.
"I know that the
concept of a calendar that marks the passage of time appears to contradict the
simultaneity of time in the Garden that I alluded to earlier. I learned that,
even in the Garden where time felt simultaneous, there was still a way to
ascertain the seeming passage of time taking place on Earth. And though
initially in the Garden everything seemed to be happening all at once, once I
began to converse with my companion and receive information from him, time
seemed to become linear again for the duration of my visit.
"I now
understand that this happened not because time actually became linear for two
weeks, but because I would have no other way of decoding the information I
received in the Garden once I was back here in this world. The only way I can
understand here what was told to me there is to remember it in linear terms. I
do not know if the near-death experience itself was linear, or if I just have
to remember it in those terms in order to decipher, understand, and communicate
it. My gut feeling is that time there was not linear, but that linear time is
my only frame of reference here.
"My companion
told me that I was welcome to stay there in the Garden, or I could choose to
return to my Earthly body. The choice was mine, and his job was to tell me
everything I wanted and needed to know to help me make the decision. He also
explained that, if I decided to stay, he would escort me from the Garden along
a path and over the mountains to where the living glow still patiently awaited
my arrival.
My companion told me two things
that clinched my decision to leave the Garden and return to my still unfinished
life. Both involved my children. First, he told me that if I returned to my
life, I would have a third child, a daughter. He explained that she had already
selected Barry and me as her parents. As he told me this, I understood that if
my daughter was already a soul that had made a conscious decision to come to
this life as a new baby, then she had possibly been here before. And if she had
been here before, we all have possibly been here before. This idea of
reincarnation really resonated and made sense to me. I now knew that
reincarnation was a fact. When Jeremy and Andy had been born, and I held them
for the first time, I already recognized them. It was a different feeling from
the overwhelming love I felt for them. It was a familiarity. I had known them
before.
Reincarnation was a topic to which
I had previously not given much thought, if any at all. Had I thought about it
prior to my NDE, I would have laughed it off as impossible. But hearing that my
child chose me as her mother, somehow made the process of reincarnation not
only real, but deliberate and planned. It also made sense of the familiarity I
felt with my children as newborns. I understand now that each life is pre-planned and of our own choosing. I asked why anyone would choose a harsh life.
Immediately, I was answered. Every life is fraught with difficulties, and the
level and specifics of the difficulties depend on the lessons and growth the
soul wishes to achieve in any given life. Once a soul achieves the highest
level of advancement, they “graduate” and no longer have to come back to this
dimension. This dimension, where we all currently reside, is very harsh, and we
all should be commended for agreeing to return for more hard-won lessons!
Still, my companion told me not to
let the knowledge of a future third child color my decision too much. If I
decided to stay in the Garden, my future daughter would simply select other
parents. In other words, she was returning regardless of my decision.
The second thing he told me that
helped me decide to return to my life here was that my marriage to Barry would
not withstand the changes in me that this whole experience would create. I was
told that if I chose to return, Barry and I would be facing a divorce. This was
a clincher for me, as I knew that I wanted, and needed, to be the parent to
raise our children. I first had to be there, of course, to do this, which meant
coming back.
Elizabeth G. Krohn and Jeffrey J. Kripal of Changed in a
Flash: One Woman's Near-Death Experience and Why a Scholar Thinks It Empowers
Us All (North Atlantic Books, 2018). Krohn received an award from the
Bigelow Institute for Consciousness Studies for her essay “The Eternal Life of
Consciousness,” available at https://bigelowinstitute.org/contest_winners3.php.
Footnotes in the essay are not included in these excerpts from Changed in a
Flash.