Rajiv Parti writes: “From the corner of my eye I could see my second chance coming. It came from the last person I ever expected to see. It was my father! I recognized him immediately although he looked at least thirty years younger than when he died. His hair was jet black and he looked sleek and handsome in his official uniform as a Director of Civil Aviation.
“Putting his arm around me, he tried to comfort me. That act of empathy was frightening. I realized that I couldn’t remember one occasion when my father had ever comforted me as a child. Like many Indian fathers of that generation and the generation before, the only time he or my grandfather touched me was to commit an act of punishment.
“Standing with my father in the afterlife, I had a flashback of that event in which I relived not only how I felt being beaten but how my father felt as well. I could intuit his anger and disappointment like it was my own. It was a confusing and painful perspective, because I could see everything that happened to me on that long ago day yet, at the same time, experience all that he felt and saw in those superheated moments.
In his near-death experience, Parti was surprised to see hope in the eyes of his father. “He looked like a person who was enlightened by love. A person who had gazed into the eyes of God. Universal knowledge granted us in the afterlife allowed me to see and feel him in this new way.
“I could see his father with him, younger and stronger than I remembered as a child. He too had the look of God in his eyes. He did not frown at my father’s revelation about the family tradition of anger. He confirmed it with a nod, and for a moment I could feel the pain in his life too. I knew that behind him was a chain of ancestors, each of who had been filled with anger by their fathers. I also felt their presence somewhere around me, exuding understanding and empathy for the generation behind them who had given them the disease of anger.
“But now I felt empathy from my father. Don’t pass the anger to your sons, he communicated. Without moving his lips, he spoke a truth I will never forget, words clearly from the divine realm: My son, if you are truthful to your own self, the God, the Divine, the Universe, will take care of you. Around me was a gauntlet of ancestors welcoming me to walk among them to a different realm. I was pulled into the tunnel, moved forward by their welcoming hands.
“My life review then took a pleasant turn. Childhood events that were steeped in kindness, innocence, and fun appeared. The simple moments are most important, came a telepathic message from God. The simple moments are the most important because there are no simple moments. All moments are memory and lessons. All moments build the person you are.
“I could see the Light at the end of the tunnel. It was bright and powerful like a thousand suns, yet as pleasant and welcoming as a beacon guiding me to nirvana. But my forward motion slowed, then stopped, and then suddenly I realized I was no longer moving forward but backward, backward to another place and time, one where past life events would explain some of my own life’s dilemmas.
“The darkness engulfed me, and out of it came visions of a life I didn’t at first recognize but that turned out to be one of my past lives. In the first vision, I was sitting in a royal courtyard in medieval India. Feeling the power of my position as a prince of the region. The scene before me was vivid. The grass was bright green, well kept and lined with tall statues of Indian gods and goddesses. In front of those statues were farmers, the farmers who tilled my land and raised crops that made me wealthy.
“I was angry, but I don’t know why. From my princely perspective, I rose up from my throne and walked toward the farmers, swinging a whip as I moved through the cool grass. I had no fear of retribution or self-defense from the farmers because on either side of me were several loyal soldiers who advanced with me and also swung whips.
“I could not remember why I was torturing those who worked so hard for me. I do know that I took great joy in slashing the backs of the farmers after they had fallen to the ground. And I do know that my wrist began to hurt terribly after I administered these beatings, so much so that I couldn’t use that hand again without experiencing extreme pain.
“As I watched my shameful performance, I flashed forward to my current life where I had experienced a torn ligament in my right wrist. The pain had become so severe that I had taken pain pills to cope with daily life. Why had I recalled the pain in my wrist now? Was it because I had been so mean to these people, workers who had looked to me for guidance and wisdom yet received the business end of a switch?
“I was horrible to you, I said as I watched the beating play out before me. Forgive me for what I was doing. One by one the farmers came to me and accepted my apology, some even touching me to convey human kinship, something they never would have done had they thought I wasn’t sincere. When they put their hands on me, I felt a jolt like electricity that rattled me to my very bones. I am sure it was this steady stream of loving jolts that healed the ligament tear in my right wrist that had caused me pain for years.
“As I faded from the life of the medieval prince, many more of my lives flashed before me the way pictures in a picture book would if one were to flip through it very quickly.
“Suddenly the rapid review of lives stopped, and another specific life review began. I found myself sitting at the doorway of a large mud building, gazing out at a green field of plants. I was in a mountain town in Afghanistan in the nineteenth century, and before me was a field of poppies, their green pods sitting atop the stems like Popsicles on a stick. I had inherited this field of poppies from my late father and was now one of the top opium producers in the region. I was making a tremendous amount of money from the sale of these poppies, but my financial status was no longer the focus of my life. Rather, I had fallen in love with my own product. I was an opium addict.
“In the beginning, it was heavenly to inhale the opium. It put my brain into a state of pleasure that made me feel as though I was floating in warm ocean water, detached from my surroundings. Infused with this evil bliss, I watched the poppy field change color with the sunset and the day pass into night. But the joy of using opium turned to hell when I decided I wanted more. I found myself ‘testing’ the crop all day, every day, telling my employees that I had to test the drug for purity before it went to market.
“I knew they knew the truth and also knew that they would eventually move me to a hut and supply product to me that would keep me high all day while stealing the farm’s proceeds. I knew all this, but I didn’t care.
“I have been given this addiction again, I thought, as I watched my nineteenth-century self smoke the highly addictive opiates. My addiction to modern narcotics was no different from that of the addiction I experienced more than a century earlier. What was different was that I was experiencing it in a past life. What does that mean? I asked myself. It means you now know that your challenges from the past are presented to you again, said the universal voice that was with me telepathically. You have another life and another chance to cure your addictions.
“I realized that in my current life, I was echoing behavior from my previous lives, behaving with a lack of love to those less fortunate, misusing my material wealth and social status, and numbing myself to real life with painkillers and antidepressants. As this insight pulsed through me, another wave of awareness washed over me: if I were still alive after this surgery, I would have to break these patterns and live differently. Perhaps I would be given another chance to conquer my failings.”
Rajiv Parti, Dying to Wake Up: A Doctor’s Voyage into the Afterlife and the Wisdom He Brought Back (Atria Books, 2016).
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