Then I remember walking to the emergency room doors. It was like I was in a tunnel and the emergency room doors appeared to be getting farther away. I began to feel tired, and the thought entered my mind to go back to the truck and rest a bit. But as I was going to turn and go back, I felt hands grab my shoulders to keep me walking straight to the emergency room door.
I felt like I was slipping on a hillside with lose rock like
shale. As I looked up, it was dark and there were three crosses. The man's face
on the cross in the middle had a 'slash' of light illuminating his face, mainly
his eyes, but just from his face you could tell he had been severely beaten.
But his eyes—to this day I get emotional when I think and feel the complete
love, compassion and caring I felt he had for me.
What I'm going to describe happened in thought, not words. He then asked me if
I understood. 'Understood what?' was my thought. I then 'saw' things in rapid
succession that were moments of my life, complete with emotions I felt during
certain times of my life as a child and up through adulthood. Then again, the
question 'Do you understand??' Again, I saw a rapid succession of events in my
life. I must have been 'getting something' because the next question was 'What
would be your idea of heaven?' Before I could answer, I found myself 'in the
womb' floating above the planet.
Then came a feeling like I was in utopia with complete knowledge of everything.
If I began to ask a question, I had the answer before I finished the thought.
It was during this time when I wanted to know Jesus/God better and get as close
as I could to him. The thought was, 'If you listen to Thomas, seek out
Thomas...'
When I woke from my coma, I told the nurse that if she wanted to know the
answer to anything, to ask now because the knowledge was fading fast. But the
thought, 'search out Thomas (the book)' was vivid. At the time, I knew that he
was one of the 12 disciples, but his importance or that there was a book of
Thomas, was not known to me.
The next memory is that I'm standing in the lobby of a hospital. I was
expecting someone to 'pick me up' but people were walking past me, like they
were looking 'through'' me. I tried to 'ask ' someone where I was and then
noticed my friend John was driving his wife's Mercedes which she NEVER let him
drive. He was driving it into the parking lot. I started looking for my
'suitcase' but couldn't find it. I looked up to see John walk right past me to
the elevator doors and get into the elevator. He had a plate covered with
tinfoil, which was my Thanksgiving dinner. The hospital told him that I was in
the critical care unit but not my condition.
At no time do I remember 'seeing ' my body or seeing anyone doing CPR or
defibrillation or any medical procedure on me. I'm not a huge fan of hospitals
anyway!! At no time was I able to get anyone's attention. At no time was the
experience frightening. On the contrary, the incredible feeling of
non-judgmental, love and peace I felt from whom I felt was Jesus/God on that
cross, I will never forget.
NDERF.org, #7981
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