I instantly found myself above the accident in a
distance that was three to four times tree height. The accident
occurred outside and although I saw my horse get up and my trainer run
toward someone on the ground, I did not realize that it was me. I did
not feel scared or confused. I felt calm and curious about the
activities below. I was too high up to see the people in enough detail
to identify them. I felt as if my back was against a barrier. I knew
the barrier was not visible to me; but, if I turned around and examined
it, that I would move through it. I did not question this knowledge.
Beings,
loved ones, or friends did not meet me. I did not see 'the light'.
The feeling of total calm and peace did engulf me. My focus moved from
the people, and I found myself very curious about a row of pine trees
along the right fence line and how it looked. I remember thinking, 'So,
that is what they look like from up here!' In actuality, I don't recall
ever wondering about this before. But, at this moment, the trees were
far more interesting than the people. Suddenly and with no warning, I
was in my body.
I was covered in blood from a head wound. My
trainer was cradling me in his arms. I could hear an ambulance
approaching the stable and then drive past and the sirens faded as they
drove away unable to locate us at first. Normally, I would have been
terrified that I was going to die. But I had a peace over me. I simply
and truly knew that I would be fine. Not only that I would be fine,
that I was fine.
The ambulance eventually found us and I was
taken to a hospital where it was determined that I had a broken collar
bone, a major laceration on my temple, a severe concussion and severe
road rash on my back and legs from the force of my body crushing the
plywood coup jump. I cannot state how improbable it was that I survived
this accident. How was my back not snapped in half by the force of a
1500 pound horse crushing me while my back hit a 4 foot high wooden
pyramid shaped coup and then the 2 of us fell to the ground once it
collapsed. I walked away that night from the hospital.
The gift
that I received was dΘjα vu that at times is so powerful that I can
tell someone exactly what will be said and who will enter the room. It
is very disorienting because I truly feel that I have already done this.
Not just once, but over and over like I am on a loop reel. I can't
explain this adequately and the incidents I have no control over when
they occur or why it happens on the most ridiculous events, very trivial
events, but important. For years, I did not realize what happened to
me until I heard of stories about others that did not see the light. So
glad I am not alone.
NDERF.org, #7105
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