I was in hospital about to get an intravenous
(IV) drip with anesthesia. When the line unkinked, the drugs came racing
into my body. I felt my heart immediately go into extreme tachycardia.
'My heart!' I yelled, 'My Heart!' The nurses came running toward me.
Suddenly, I was flying about 8 feet over my body. I was watching
the scene below as the nurse scrambled through the cabinet looking for
something. She was pulling things out and onto the floor. The nurse
assistant ran into the surgery room. She grabbed the doctor, who ran
over to me and started doing compressions while the nurses got the big
needle out. they were arguing about whether it would be better to put it
into my chest or into the IV line. I thought I was in a dream state
until I looked at the EKG, and it was all flat lines with the alarms going off.
I said to myself, 'Oh Fu#$! I am Dying!' I could see the doctors
down below trying frantically to bring me back. I said, 'I don't want
to die! Oh My GOd! NO!' I tried to dive back into my body, but instead I
was falling backward through a dark tunnel at what seemed like
thousands of miles per hour. It was horrifying until I started slowing
down. I realized that it wasn't a dark tunnel. It was a tunnel with so
many lights. There were so many colors I had never seen before. I
wasn't afraid any more.
At the end of this tunnel was the most beautiful place in
existence. I seemed to have arrived back in the room but in another
dimension. I was looking at everyone and everything in that hospital
through what I can only describe as 'through the eyes of God.' I felt the
Love of God for all these people in the hospital; the patients, the
staff, and the receptionist. I never saw my own life, but I saw everyone
else's life pass before my eyes. I saw the receptionist and everything
about her. I saw her heart. I felt her love for her babies. I felt her
pain and her thoughts. I saw the technician and everything in his life
right then. I saw each person for who they really truly were. I saw what
motivated them and I saw their beautiful soul-full hearts. I saw their
souls as if through the eyes and heart of God. I saw them and I loved
them, each and every person. I seemed to pull back from the room and up,
out of the building. I saw people on the street and knew their pain. I
saw them with pure love.
Then I began getting an information download. There was no
talking, just information going into me with absolute love. It was very
clear, very loud, and very certain, that We are ALL VERY IMPORTANT TO
GOD. The message was that our lives are deeply important to God and to
the existence of the universe. Our Love we have and the love we
cultivate on earth, especially for people we have a hard time liking,
that love somehow expands the universe and does some very important
things. I felt that there was something at stake, that we have a very
important job to do. Human Beings are beloved and our choice in how to
act is given to us to prove God. I don't know how to describe it, I am
trying hard to explain it here but it's hard to explain. It may take my
lifetime to explain what I learned.
In this place we go to, we will have lightness, laughter and
joy, and our soul family is there waiting for us. Our jobs on earth are
to find out how to break through all these illusory walls everywhere
that we erect to hide who we are. We need to really love each other and
love ourselves. I felt as though there was a sense of humor too. I was
like a deep appreciation for our lives and even for our failures. We are
suppose to learn from our failures and not beat ourselves up over them.
We find a way to forgive and love ourselves because in reality, in the
real place of creation, there is only Love.
It seemed the message was that if we couldn't find a path to love,
then we are destroying something very very precious.
I recognized a big crowd of people around me, but they didn't have
human form. I recognized their souls. They had pink shapes but also
resonated to the energy which was them. My great-uncle Steve, I felt him
there. I also felt the presence of my grandmother who is actually
alive. It was then that I realized that when we pray, we actually send
our soul-self to the side of the person. It is an act of love which
makes creation. The love was incredible and the beauty was so
absolutely, outrageously incredible. When I was looking down at all
these people and the doctor who was trying to save me, I was thinking,
'I love these people. Oh, these people
are so loved!' I wanted to go back so badly and tell them how loved they
were. I was standing alongside this soul family of mine and in the
presence of what I would describe as total love from the one who made it
all. Yet, I wanted to go back.
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