December 6, 2017,
I was holding my newborn baby who had been born in the evening via c-section.
Our family was finally complete, and I was savoring every moment, except
perhaps the sleep deprivation.
On December 7, 2017, I was in absolute bliss. The evening had come and my
husband and I had just eaten dinner. Then I relaxed against the bed and drifted
off to sleep. Moments later it was as if someone had stood up onto the bed and
kicked me square in the chest. I sat up clutching my chest, trying to hand the
baby to my husband. He took the baby and ran to the hall to get a nurse. My
heart was beating so hard that I could hear it in my ears and as I looked down,
I could see it through my gown. I was vaguely aware that my husband was
panicking, since he could not get a nurse into the room.
Then the light began in the corner of the room near the ceiling, just behind my
husband. My energy began leaving my body and flowing into the light. Then went
into the sky, flowing with the light. The light carried me off into space, beyond
our universe and into a ball of light so bright that I could see it long before
I actually reached it. Energy was flowing not only into the massive ball of
light but from it as well. The light was heading off in various directions
through the multiverse. I entered the ball of light that I now know as the
'central sun.'
I began having visions of my life, not just this one but every life I had ever
lived. This life was the last vision I was shown. The visions were almost like
those pictographs I had as a kid. I was shown key points in my lives. I then
was given visions of the bad things I had done, as well as the good. My good
seemed to outweigh the bad; although in past lives, I had done some pretty
appalling things.
Then I was shown a vision of the earth. Next I saw the vision of myself
approaching the central sun. It was as if I were being shown that the central
sun was where all energy comes from and returns to, no matter where one calls
home from lifetime to lifetime.
However, I did encounter familiar energies of loved ones who had passed from
this lifetime and other past lives. They were not physical matter, just energy.
I knew them instantly and they knew me, especially those who had been with me
in other lives beyond this one.
These visions came from within my subconscious and I understood things that I
couldn't possibly have known. I was not met by another entity who claimed to be
'god.' I suddenly was well-versed in the knowledge of how the universe works
and where dark energy and matter come from. This has led me to research quantum
physics to try to understand what happened to me.
I was shown a small portion of what my future holds as my purpose in this life
was revealed to me. My purpose is to love and be loved and to teach and be
taught. I am to be a beacon for those like me, those who have experienced a
life-altering reality and are seeking understanding. I was to raise my children
to lead from their hearts and accept all of humanity to help them seek balance
and understanding.
Everything was hyper-realistic, perhaps more real than I have ever known
reality to be. I felt like I was there for years and was sure I had died that
day in the hospital holding my baby.
I tried to check in on my husband and kids, only to realize that only moments
had passed. I realized time is an illusion and our energy can communicate
without word and it can travel without measure of speed.
As I checked in on my family, my newborn daughter cried and I could see my
husband crying as well. I then violently slammed back into my body and felt
intensely everything they were doing to bring me back. I had 4 IV's inserted in
various places throughout my body as the nurses injected me with adenosine,
three separate times to try to get my heart rate back down from 225 bpm. It
worked on the third try and my heart rate went back down to a normal 80 bpm
instantly. I looked over at my husband and told him I loved him and he said he
loved me back.
They then wheeled me down for a cat scan. I was diagnosed with a pulmonary embolism
that had lodged in my heart for several moments before traveling to my left
lung. The type of embolism I had was referred to by the nurses as a 'widow
maker' because 98% of people do not survive them.
My NDE has made me more grateful for the time I get to spend with my loved
ones. It also seems like a double-edged sword as I can vividly remember how
calming and serene I felt in the light. In the year since my experience I have
met some amazing people with similar experiences as mine, and some vastly
different with similar parts to their story as mine. I know there is life after
life and that while I am in this lifetime, it is my duty to share my gifts with
others. I am also trying to raise my own vibration and those around me through
frequency IE creativity and talent in order to awaken their soul to its greater
purpose.
My life since the NDE has been a bit traumatic since the people I have talk to
so far cannot understand what I am talking about when I try to explain my NDE
to them. Some think I have gone mad. I also notice that I do not connect to
people the way I used to. Now much of the human race disgusts me and I have
severe anxiety trying to understand their 'issues.' Many times their
experiences seem so trivial and self-centered to me that my heart actually
aches. I have also some new gifts since my NDE. I can hear, smell and even
taste electricity. I hear a humming or buzzing, when an appliance or device is
plugged in, even when it is turned to the off position. I can hear peoples
thoughts sometimes and get visions of their lives. I can read people's energy
and have deja vu often. I dream in vivid color and often leave my body again,
as if checking on things at home and reaffirming that what I experienced is
real. I remember things from the first 5 years of my life that I never knew
before or had never been told.
My whole life has completely turned around and I have found it to be a blessing
and a curse as I do not relate to the average person the way I used to. I do
hope my story can help others who may be experiencing or have experienced what
I went through. Brightest blessings to all who may come across my story.
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